We are all going to die,

but some of us are living   in death’s waiting room,   not by choice,   not to attain enlightenment,   but because we got this ping on our phone   You have new test results”   and then found ourselves sitting   in rows of black padded chairs   with a TV blaring From Fixer to Fabulous”   reading each twinge like a tea leaf,   each scan like a tarot card  

at some point, our names are called   and we rise and recite our date of birth   Outside someone smokes a cigarette,   and grackles congregate in a tree.  

And we test again, result again.  Meanwhile, a car drives by,   some rain falls. 

Here we give So much blood   and yet it is all so clean.  Elsewhere, a meeting drones on,  a freshman makes her choral debut. 

Even in the gap between  test and result, where gravity triples  and oxygen thins   to barely breathable levels,   the world still plods along 

If it hears us calling  wait, hold up”,   it does not show it. 

And so we lumber after it,   unable to bare the wasting   of even one unbearable minute. 



Posted on October 5, 2023





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